sigh. tday. im missing hunnykins loads. lol. he had live firing ytd den tday he having mission at ghost town. so yeah. couldnt talk on fone n cant sms. he called me up @ 11pm plus last nite but i was already in dreamland. i slept abt 8pm plus ytd. yupp. damn early. dunno y i feel so worn out. i was so free ytd den my mind starts to wander. i hate it wen it does dat. i'll b tinking of all e problems dat i kept brushing off.
well.. abt me... im e kinda girl dat always look on e bright side of life. if problem comes, i keep pretending its nothing den shoves it away to my "problem closet". wen im totally free n haf time to totally space out, dat closet would be open. den i will get paranoid. i'll b thinking all kinds of nonsensical thing. den wen im feeling too down or too angry, i would force myself to sleep no matter how bright the sun might shine thru e window pane. sucky sucky me. dats y i always always keep myself (physically & mentally) busy. dats y i took up two IGs (wakeboarding & dance). wen im busy, i feel happy. all other emotions would b far far away. weird huh?
another thing abt me... u'll always see me in a cheerful, happy, bubbly mood. always. but once in a while (very seldom), anyone who happens to really trigger my emotions, den dat whole day would be ruined. for me dat is. i will see like every single thing is simply wrong. like... my hair is so messy, my outfits dun match, e sun is too sunny. wen actually in reality, its perfectly fine.
anyways, ive been a pill-popping freak. i began my day yesterday & today by consuming panadol. no. not for fun. cause i felt a migrane cuming. sucks alot okay. it makes one side of ur eyes tear for like every sec (like crying wif one eye oni) n u feel like ur gonna pass out anytime. sucky sucky. lol. well. tday skool finishing 8pm. got bboy session wif bboy larry. woohhoos. well. toodles.
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