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kays. about ten or so in the morning, i msged his mummy to ask how is she n all. n she said she's fine but feel lonely and all. so i offered to go out wif her if she wants. den she say she'll confirm again about 5pm.

okay. was 4 sumtink in the afternoon n was in class. the phone rang and it was his mummy. it was set. we meeting 545 at jurong east interchange. i left after presentation and rushed home to get changed. reached home about 520, i panicked. quickly bathe and got dressed. den bro told me he got tix to watch the match, spore vs brazil. den i rmmbd dat aunty said uncle (his daddy) and danish (his lil bro) going to watch also. so i called aunty n thankfully she was wif em so syafiq gg to stadium wif uncle n danish.

we were late so quickly flagged a taxi to j.e. OMG. BIGGEST MISTAKE LA. the effing driver made a wrong turn n hadta waste time getting back to the right road. FUCK LA. somemore we further delayed by the effing traffic. every traffic light keeps turning red. i was cursing la. den i said out loud to my bro... "SHOULD HAF TAKEN THE MRT. WULDA REACHED THERE FASTER. NEXT TIME WE TAKE MRT AH. WASTE TIME ONLY." den the bloody taxi driver gave attitude. scold him sia. tell me whu wuldnt get angry? imagine ah, it takes longer time to reach den taking mrt. den the taxi fare was $13 SIAAAAAAA. feel like whacking the driver. NO MORE TAKING BLOODY TAXI. arggghh!!

okay. den reached oreadi, met aunty n uncle. den we go our seperate ways. Aunty n i took bus to vivoct. i paid by coins n aunty paid some for me cos i onli had notes. how embarrassing. must remind myself to bring many coins den notes next time. n i tot i dint bring y ezlink but soon after realised it was at the back pocket of my jeans. WAT THE!! lol. den aunty and i talk alot. real nice la. thank god i wasnt nervous.

reached vivo, we went tangs and walk around. looked at clothes and all. then aunty point out one mannequin at lingerie section with a sexy pose. lol. super sexy la cos it was lying down wif head tilted backwards. den we went to forever 21 n aunty tried on two clothes. one was a really nice halter dress. hehe. but aunty say tooo sexy. but she like it. (might consider) so she dint bought it den we went to nichii. n we both saw a nice black top. she tried it on n bought it. lol. den after loads of windowshopping and gossiping, we went for dinner at secret recipe. wanted to pay but aunty scold me. lol. den we took bus and head back to her house.

reached her house, she showed me around the house. she showed me her room and there was a picture dat me, suzi (baby's future sis in law) and aunty take together placed at the mirror of her bedroom. awww. =) den saw her collection of bags of LV, guess and such. so nice. envious. lol. den she showed me baby's room. so neat laaa. lol. n his eeyore pillow. soooo cuuutteee. hehe. shhh. =p den she showed me all the photo albums. saw faruq's baby photos. oh my!!!!!!! so adorable la. got sooo pinchable cheeks. hahas. miss him!!! den few mins after, uncle, danish n my bro reached aunty's house also. den daddy come n fetch. n dat was e end of an enjoyable day. =)
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its pass midnight n i still culdnt sleep. my baby called me just now and we talked for a moment. felt like crying just listening to his voice. i missed him so much. n it calms me so just to noe he's safe. i watch the news today. for the first time since years. just so i could find out about the typhoon thingy. i actually cried wen watching the news for 2 reasons. one, i cried cos im so thankful it dint hit today. two, i cried cos it's predicted to hit tomorrow. im damn worried okay. i pray to God every single day since e day my baby flew off, asking him to protect my baby from harm. I just hope HE would listen to my prayers. The worst part is, baby is gonna start outfield thingy from tomorrow till about next week? so he cant msg or call me for a really long time. so i hafta simply sit here n hope he's safe. im worried. so so worried and afraid dat i just cant help but cry...
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today honey sent me to skool. he woke up early in the morning just to meet me at jurong east interchange at 715am just to haf breakfast wif me n send me to skul. so sweet rite? he sacrificed his sleep wen sleep is the most valuable thing for ns men as they hardly haf enuf sleep in camp. awww. okay. so we went straight to my skool. we were damn early la. even most of e seniors were not even in skul yet. lol. so we placed my bag in class and we had breakfast at my skul canteen. I decided dat breakfast was on me. so we ordered two sets of breakfast meal consisting of half-boil eggs, bread wif butter and kaya n a cup of tea per set. and also bought him waffles, his favourite!! =) camwhored a lil here n der. den he went off and i went to class to start e day.

about 3 sumtink in the afternoon, i went home after my presentation cos i was feeling damn sick. baby offered to fetch me from skul but i dint allow cos it would b troublesome for him. den few mins after, he told me dat his neighbour's grandad passed away. my baby was close wif e grandad so yah... my baby felt so sad. thankfully, honey got to attend his funeral and got back just in time to take his things from home and left home for the airport about 8pm with his family.

i and my whole family also planned to send him off so we got der about 945pm, ate a lil bit at BK den went to meet him n his family at row 10 at abt 1015pm. it was nice seeing my parents talking wif his parents and getting to noe each other. i and my honey also spent time talking a lil bit.

den time flew real fast and its 1145pm and he had to go. GOD. wen i see him hugging his family and shaking hands wif my parents to bid goodbye, i cried. Tears start to roll. I couldnt hold it back. felt so sad la. wen he saw me cry, he also cried a lil. so we both were like crying in front of our family. it was realli unexpected cos i wasnt feeling sad at all e whole time till we bid goodbye. den i let him n his mummy haf some alone time and his mummy cried too. alot. i tried to console her by giving her tissues. after dat, we all bid goodbye to each other and went our seperate ways. his mummy hugged me n told me dat if i ever missed faruq, just give her a call. (thanks auntie =))

he's gonna be gone for 3 weeks n its gona feel like 3 months. im starting to miss him terribly. i just hope he would be safe cos der is natural disasters going on der. im so worried for his safety. haishh.. I LOVE YOU BABY. COME BACK SOON okay?
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I am the type of girl dat has really low self esteem. Yes. Im so insecure of myself. Always felt dat i am never good enuff. I have those moments wen i would sigh and walk away at the very glance of the reflection in the mirror. And those moments whereby I would look at pretty girls on the street, with envy. This is bad. As this insecurities and pass experiences would affect my darling. I would have doubts about how much he really loves me. No. Its not his fault. He's the best boyfriend ever. He is so generous with his love for me. Always pampering me, always gives me all the attention i ever needed, and he never said no to watever i asked for. He is just the kind of man I could ever dreamt of sharing my life with and so much more. Even so, i feel insecure still cos I am so afraid dat some other girl would snatch him away from me. I told him this. And he sent me this msg. Which i cant help but smile wen i read...

"Baby? I dunno how much u'll trust what i'm gonna say.. But my love for u will always stay strong..It can only grow stronger, never weaker.. Baby, the day I decided to put the necklace around ur neck was the day I decided that i will dedicate my life, my love to u.. I'll love and be loyal to u and u alone my sweetheart.. :-) trust in me when i say that. For i do mean every word I said."
(sent: 140708, 4.35 pm)

Honey... I'll try to put away all those worries and have faith in what we have. You mean so much to me. & my loyalty will never ever change. =) The day i will stop loving u, is the day u want me to. & I hope and pray that u will be the last man i say these words to.
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daddy posing fer cam at e back. lol.


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the lady i love loads. =)


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e one in e middle is his younger bro. oh my. hunnykins acting gay. =p


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true frens. =)


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hmm. okay. i had gymming fer wakeboarding in skul. GOD. it so rocks to burn fats. lol. budden sadded. after gymming, ate laksa. gained back e fats. *sigh. lol. anyways. i got home at 9.30pm. heard daddy lecturing someone b4 got in e house. so im guessing sumtink's up. got in n saw my bro crying. n mummy looked disappointed. Gosh. i was shocked. I saw my bro's hair was brown in colour. he told me it was some coloured gel or wax. den i asked if can wash it off. he said its onli possible with a special type of cream. I dunno of any gel or wax of such thing. im guessing it was a dye tho his frens told him its gel or wax. i dun blame him n em. kids of his age are still naive & curious. so i made mummy n daddy stop scolding and screaming n to learn to talk n listen instead. n i saw remorse in my bro's eyes and he cried and say he wont do it. wen we talked nicely den he open up to us & tell us about wats gg on in his life. i feel like such a bad sister fer nt knowing wats happening in his life. all bcos im so bz wif my own life & IGs (term fer cca in rp). hmm. i shall make sure i talk to him more. anyways. i thot his hair colour was rather nice but of cos i dint tell him dat. see. my parents have dis policy... NO DYING OF HAIR. dat applies to me too. so yup. tho im in poly, ive never dyed my hair. hmm. dats abt it? so so tired. got hiphop IG tmrw. toodles!

p.s: to all parents. learn to listen n not hear to wat ur kids hafta say.. yelling or scolding doesnt always work. instead, ask em why they do mistakes. make em reflect on their wrong doings. it works better that way. =)
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im like so dead. lol. hunnykins bday is comiing dis sun. mummy & i oreadi bought him a gift, swatch watch. bought boyfy bday gift use mummy money. how weird rite?? lol. well. not my fault dat she dowan lemme work. hahas. okays. aniways. dats not important. guess wat??! i found out just now dat he dun like to wear watch. u noe how sadded i was? lol. i haven told him tho that ive bought a watch for him. oh damn. wat kind of girlfren m i dat i dun even noe wat he dislike?! *HUGE SIGH* i just haf to pray hard dat he would somehow stop disliking not wearing watches. n i dunno wat else more to do to make his bday more special. i suck at surprise and such. TRUST ME. hmm. well. i hafta crack my brain lor. anyways. thank god he in ns. so he wont get to read dis b4 sat, e day we're celebrating his bday which means i can post dis without him knowing what I giving him. hehe. oh yah. saturday was supposed to be "him celebrating his bday wif family" day. but. his mummy decided to invite me to join them too. HELL YEAH im nervous. lol. so nervous dat i juz hadta go shopping wif mummy fer wat to wear on sat at vivo ytd. lol. wish me luck! =)
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